Monday, July 21, 2014

Music Monday // Number 01

This is a new feature I would like to begin on the blog, where I share music I currently love/discover. I would love to be able to feature up-and-coming artists or even videos of open-mic night performers, so if you have any suggestions, please submit them in through the contact form on my blog's sidebar. Please enjoy this new segment as I share my love and passion for music with you, my lovely readers!

This week's selection: "Poison" by Jet Black Alley Cat


Thursday, July 17, 2014

The Queen City

My overnight trip to Charlotte wasn't as eventful as I had thought, but it was still fun nonetheless. I honestly think my favorite part of the trip was the ride to and from, with my headphones in and the scenery whirring past as we drove down the highway. I love just the thought and prospect of going places. 

We stayed with my mom's boyfriend's family, which was very nice. We went to SeaLife, which is a local rescue aquarium inside a mall. Yes, INSIDE the mall. This mall was absolutely gigantic. Words cannot describe. 

We ate dinner at Buffalo Wild Wings that night and spent the rest of our trip the next day shopping in the mall. I would have loved to get out and see some of the local spots in Charlotte, but that'll be for another trip. 

Peace out, Charlotte. Hope to see you again soon!


Wednesday, July 16, 2014

What Is Keeping You From Achieving Your Dreams Right Now?

Elizabeth over at Delightfully Tacky has challenged fellow bloggers to answer the following question: "What is keeping you from achieving your dreams right now?" I have decided to join in on this conversation.

It would be so easy for me to put the blame on anything but myself; I could blame my home life or the economy, my recent breakup or the loss of friendships. I could put the fault on any number of outside sources. But when it comes down to it, I am the one who is holding myself back.

I really noticed it the other day. I'm still very close friends with my ex, and I was laying on my bed talking to him when I looked over and saw the list of "19 Things To Do Before I Turn 20" taped to the side of my bookshelf. I put it there to remind myself that I had goals to reach, but this was really the first time I had looked at it in months. And to be honest, I was really sad to realized that I haven't done a single one of them... and I have less than 6 months left. 

Some of them are things that I know have to be done: getting my driver's license, getting my transfer to SCAD sent in and accepted, and so on. Really, it's my own procrastination and laziness and fear and insecurity that has held me back from many of these things. I have always felt something; this want, desire, need, to be accepted and admired and loved. I have the worst habit of comparing myself to others, and living in the age of Facebook, blogging, and Instagram, it's very easy for me to feel less than; less interesting, less lovable, less beautiful. I could have a wonderful experience going somewhere or create something beautiful, but my brain sees something of someone else's and I lose confidence in the things I feel or have done. And it's really sad, because I know that I have a lot to be proud of and a lot to share. 

My life choices are already different from most people my age anyway. While most people are drinking and smoking and experimenting with drugs and sleeping around and having the quintessential "college experience," I have no desire for any of those things. These are personal choices and by no means do I think I am better than anyone else for making them; but I also don't want to be around people who are going to be getting plastered or high and I don't want to be made to feel like a freak for not dating a different guy every weekend. Because of these choices, I know many of my friends leave me out of things and don't even bother to make plans with me even one-on-one, which is sad because it makes me feel like I'm not good enough. I know that I could overcome these feelings of social anxiety on my own, but in a way I wish someone would at least extend an offer or two to give me a hand.

I know that I am the one getting in my own way, and I know that a lot of the excuses I make are really only present and relevant in my head. After seeing that list with nothing on it completed, I know I have to make many changes, and I am already putting effort towards a few things that I know need to be done.


Thursday, June 26, 2014

Summer Portraits with Danny

It's been a busy (and WiFi free) past few weeks! There's a lot going on, including the planning of our weekend trip to Charlotte, NC this weekend and this portrait session with my friend Danny on Monday. I wanted to share my favorites from the shoot, but you can view the entire collection on my Facebook page.

I already have multiple more shoots planned tentatively for this summer, so I'll be posting more to my photography page all summer! And I'll share photos from Charlotte as soon as possible. 


Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Product Review: Gillette Venus Snap with Embrace

I recently received the Venus Snap voxbox complimentary from Influenster. At first, I was a little unsure of what the product was, but when I opened the package, I was pleasantly surprised. It's a little travel-sized razor with a little carrying compact! The handle is small and the razor is full sized, perfect for when you need to fix a missed spot #InASnap ! It is compatible with all Gillette Venus razors, but came with one of the 5-blade razor heads from the Embrace line. Already, I have used this razor out in public (I always think my shave is so perfect until I get out in town in shorts and see that my knees are like a patch of un-mowed lawn....) This razor is a perfect lifesaver. All you have to do is wet the blade, shave, and you're golden! This is going to be great for the summer traveling I hope to do!

9.5/10  Would DEFINITELY recommend!!


Friday, May 16, 2014

My First Portraiture Session: Autumn and Ting

On Sunday, I had my first ever portraiture session with my friends Autumn and Ting. We decided to go down to Hunting Island beach, and I am so happy with how the sitting went. I wanted to share a few of the pictures with everyone! The full series of pictures can be seen on the Whispered Wishes Photography Facebook page.

I love these two girls so much, and they were so much fun to take photos of. 


Wednesday, May 14, 2014

What I Wore: 2014 Invitational Croquet Tournament

Romper/ The Clothes Line; Crossbody bag/ Target; Belt/Urban Outfitters; Necklace/ gift
This past Saturday, I volunteered with my friend Autumn down at the 2014 Invitational Croquet Tournament on Brays Island. The tournament is a yearly event to benefit AMIkids Beaufort, the local branch of a national organization whose mission is to help kids who have gotten into some trouble build towards a better future. (Kind of like an alternative to juvy.) Through this live-in facility, students not only can earn their GEDs but also have the opportunity to learn skills to help them make a living, such as welding.

Autumn and I were at the registration tent, where we signed in and gave schedules to the teams as they arrived. It was a beautiful day outside, and there was a bunch of great food there, not to mention all of the amazing and fancily-clad people. We didn't play any croquet ourselves, but everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves. If I have to opportunity to volunteer again next year, I will definitely jump at the chance!


Monday, May 12, 2014

Candid Thoughts: On Importance

As I mentioned in a previous blog post, we recently adopted a new little kitten. We have finally chosen a name for him, Toby. He' about 7 weeks old by now, and he has absolutely captured my heart. He was still very young when we got him, so because I had him sleeping in my bed with me from the very first night, he's grown pretty attached to me. I think he sees me as "mommy." He always follows me around, looks for me when I leave the house, comes to me when he is hungry or scared, makes a point to curl up in my neck/chest area to fall asleep. And sometimes, when he isn't playful or when he is waking up from sleep, he just lays there, like he is in the picture above, and just stares at me. It isn't a "feed me" stare, or a "let's play" stare or even a "I need to use the litter box" stare. It's pure and perfect love. I'm only 19 and I've never been a mother, but if this is what it feels like, I am so excited for motherhood when my time comes.

The thing is, I've never felt so important. Even though there are other people living in the house, he looks to me 100% for his care. In his eyes, I am the most important person in the world. And that feels pretty damn good.

I got thinking about importance, and about how so many people, myself included, struggle with feeling like we are important. Many people don't believe that they have any value in the world because they don't believe that they are or can make a difference. Many believe that they have to please everyone to be considered important. And as I thought about this, it occurred to me that everyone who thinks like that needs to think again.

You see, there are 7 billion people in the world. Each person has their own set of ethics, beliefs, and personal values and opinions. Nobody is going to be able to please everyone in the world. Sorry Christians, but not even Jesus could do it. He was crucified, right? But Jesus is important to Christians. And just like that, every person is important. No, you don't have to be crucified for that to happen. 

Every decision we make is an important decision, whether it's as simple as turning left instead of right, or as complicated as deciding to start a family. Whether you realize it or not, there is always going to be someone who thinks you are the most important person in the world. Some people have millions who think this about them. Some have very few. Maybe some have only one. But to quote John Green's novel The Fault in our Stars, "Some infinities are bigger than other infinities." Someone looks up to you and thinks you are the most important person, and I promise you, you do not want to let them down. So if you are ever feeling unimportant, remember that someone is watching from afar, because you are the most important person to them.


Friday, May 2, 2014

A College Essay: How Van Gogh's Works Differ From Both Impressionism and Post-Impressionism

How Van Gogh's Works Differ From Both Impressionism and Post-Impressionism

     Two of the major movements in European and American art are the Impressionist and Post-Impressionist movements. Works from the Impressionist movement are known for being the artist's “impression” of a scene. Post-Impressionism came about in part as a reaction against Impressionism. Among others, such as Georges Seurat and Paul C├ęzanne, Vincent van Gogh (1853-1890) is classified as a Post-Impressionist artist. Nevertheless, van Gogh's art was different also from the works of other Post-Impressionist artists of his time; he used many characteristics of Impressionist art in his works as well as newer techniques, some unique to his own work, even becoming the “archetype” of expressionism (Funk.) Through his own vast creativity, personal style, and the influence of his own turmoil and mental illness, Vincent van Gogh was able to take the ideas of the Impressionist and Post-Impressionist periods and transform them into works of art that weren't fitting into the typical works of Impressionism or Post-Impressionism.

Vincent Van Gogh, Weaver Arranging Threads
Vincent van Gogh, Interior of a Weaver's Workshop with Baby Chair

    The early part of van Gogh's career was heavily influenced by the Impressionist movement. In looking at his pieces depicting weavers in Brabant, such as Weaver Arranging Threads and Interior of a Weaver's Workshop with Baby Chair, the scene is, in fact, an impression of what a scene actually looked like rather than stylized and abstracted versions of scenes such as those that appear later in his career. In these early works, shadows and dark areas are generally indicated with black paint or ink. However, in keeping with themes of Post-Impressionism, these paintings and sketches showing the weavers had a focus on the social aspect of the work rather than just the surface purpose of being something to look at. (Cothren.) It is inferred, in fact, that because of van Gogh's psychological history, the works may be “an affirmation of Van Gogh's professional self and a displacement of his discomfort in his father's house,” van Gogh's way of “projecting his identity onto images of caged artisans.” (Zemel.) There is also an avant-garde quality to this series of works in particular; the looms and other machines are dominant in the works, and the weavers are subordinate, lesser than the inanimate objects at which they work (Zemel.) This emphasis was very much intentional, a statement on the state of the weavers' situation and personal world.
Vincent van Gogh, The Potato Eaters
     Perhaps his most famous work in the avant-garde realm is his painting The Potato Eaters, free from “academic and naturalist conventions currently in use for the depiction of rural folk” (Pollock.) The painting is of a scene of rural peasants sitting around a table eating potatoes. Rather than glamourizing the scene to make it more aesthetically pleasing, van Gogh kept with the traditions of Impressionism and painted as he saw. This piece came before his days of expressionism, accounting for the lack of his signature abstraction. The scene overall is gloomy, with few colors but great variation upon the colors used. True to Impressionism, the shadows do not appear to be a true black, but rather deep shades of blues and purples. The piece also showcases van Gogh's mastery of light, with the illumination of his subjects by the lantern hanging over the table around which they are seated being indicated by splashes of expertly-places yellow tones in non-shadowed areas of their clothing and faces.
Vincent van Gogh, The Starry Night
Edvard Munch, The Scream

Vincent van Gogh, Olive Trees With The Alipilles in the Background
     A prime example of van Gogh's unique style can be seen in one of his most famous works, The Starry Night (1889). He had written to his brother and sister numerous times of his desire to capture a starry sky in an emotional way, finally achieving his vision in this piece after two “failed” attempts previously (Soth.) Van Gogh drew influence from Georges Seurat's divisionist technique and utilized impasto, which can also be seen in the many noticeable brush strokes (Cothren). There is very little, if any, true black in this work; rather deep hues of blues and greens can be seen as the “shadows” in the nighttime piece, a technique that is taken directly from Impressionism. In a differentiation from both Impressionism and classic Post-Impressionism, the piece showcases abstract qualities in the swirling pattern of the sky, an opposing technique from the realism seen in previous art. This abstraction reflects van Gogh taking a more emotional approach to the scene he painted, showcasing what he felt more than what he saw; this phenomenon was known as expressionism (Cothren). Qualities of expressionism during the Post-Impressionist movement can be seen in Edvard Munch's Scream, a piece created after van Gogh's death (Cothren.) Like van Gogh's expressionist works, Scream features abstract swirls and distorted figures rather than realistic depictions of what Munch saw, as well as drastic shifts in color rather than careful blending of color to indicate shading. Van Gogh also drew influence from Paul Gauguin, with whom he not only shared a desire for a pre-industrial lifestyle with, but also lived with briefly in southern France near the end of van Gogh's life. A piece from his stay in the asylum, Olive Trees with the Alpilles in the Background, seems more abstract and expressionistic than many of his others. Although his impasto technique and use of colored shadows is the same, the terrain of the scene is much more chaotic, with the “swelling rhythm of the earth,” the “swirling clouds,” and the “undulating mountains” (Jiyat.)
Hokusai, Plum Orchard, Kameido

Vincent van Gogh, Japonaiserie: Flowering Plum Tree
Van Gogh also drew many aspects of his signature style from his fascination with the works of Japanese artists, as did many French painters during the Japonisme movement. His eventual quick handiwork, in which he could create an oil painting in one sitting, mirrors the fast art of Japanese calligraphers; and his “unduling, pulsating lines” are believed to have been influenced by Japanese artist Hokusai's depiction of moving water (Brower.) He even copied Hiroshige's woodblock print Plum Orchard, Kameido in his painting Japonaiserie: Flowering Plum Tree. Van Gogh's piece shows the same tree and blossoms with the same trees in the middle ground and the same railing and human figures in the background, as well as the general color scheme of Hiroshige's work (Cothren.) However, van Gogh's work looks even more flat, with the trees in the background becoming more blurry than individual, and with more vibrant and true hues than Hiroshige's work.
Vincent van Gogh, The Bedroom
Vincent van Gogh, Vase with Twelve Sunflowers

Georges Seurat, A Sunday Afternoon on the Island of La Grande Jatte
      In looking at van Gogh's The Bedroom (1889), there are many characteristics of Impressionism. These include the use of colored shadows rather than simply using shades of blacks and grays to create shadow. Van Gogh's works differ from other Post-Impressionist works, such as Seurat's A Sunday Afternoon on the Island of La Grande Jatte, in the use of impasto rather than the small dotted mosaic of Seurat's piece. In terms of color, The Bedroom utilizes pure colors, paint directly from the tube rather than blended on the palette to a specific color. This can be seen specifically in the view out the window and on the wood furniture, where one shade of a color stops abruptly and a different shade begins without blending. Van Gogh specifically applied paint directly to the canvas from the paint tube itself. (Brower.) The Bedroom was painted near the end of van Gogh's career and life, during a period of emotional turmoil and mental illness. These signature qualities of van Gogh's art appear also in his Vase With Twelve Sunflowers. The colors are not blended on the palette but rather applied to the canvas in his impasto style, and shading is indicated through abrupt shifts between one shade of a color and the next rather than a smooth and gradual shift. Black is not used to indicate shadows, rather darker shades of yellow and green.
Vincent van Gogh, Sower with Setting Sun

Vincent van Gogh, Fishing Boats on the Beach
     Van Gogh's art is not only praised for his techniques in color use and his impasta style of putting paint on a canvas, but also in his ability to manipulate patterns to evoke feeling and emotion and add meaning to his work. In observing some of his drawings, such as Sower With Setting Sun and Fishing Boats on the Beach, Marilyn Charles and Karen Telis, a psychoanalyst and a writer, state that the sweeping lines in the pieces create a “kinetic energy” and that the absence of color in his drawings “bares for the eye...the skeleton of his work” (Charles.) The women also described feeling “giddy” upon viewing van Gogh's drawings, feeling that his use of pattern is what incited these emotions in them. This kinetic movement can also be seen in some of his paintings such as The Starry Night, in which the pattern of the sky creates a swirling movement.
Conclusively, while Vincent van Gogh drew his influence heavily from the Impressionist movement and was himself active during the period of Post-Impressionism, his own personal experiences and his mental illness allowed him to develop a specific style unique to him. This personal style, as well as his subject matter and the messages he wished to convey through his work, set him apart from Impressionist and Post-Impressionist artists of the time. His use of pure colors and impasto allowed him to portray not only his literal impression but his expressionistic view of a scene in his pieces. Although he did not live to see his art become renowned and hailed as masterpieces, his works are unmistakable as his worldwide.

Works Cited
Brower, Richard. "To Reach A Star: The Creativity Of Vincent Van Gogh." High Ability Studies 11.2 (2000): 179-205. Academic Search Complete. Web. 26 Apr. 2014.
Charles, Marilyn, and Karen Telis. "Pattern As Inspiration And Mode Of Communication In The Works Of Van Gogh." American Journal Of Psychoanalysis 69.3 (2009): 238-262. MEDLINE with Full Text. Web. 27 Apr. 2014.
Cothren, Michael W. Art A Brief History, Books a La Carte Edition. By Marilyn Stokstad. 5th ed. N.-p.: Pearson College Div, 2011. 4+. Print.
"GOGH, Vincent Willem Van." (n.d.): Funk & Wagnalls New World Encyclopedia. Web. 27 Apr. 2014.
Jirat-Wasiutynski, Vojtech. "Vincent Van Gogh's Paintings Of Olive Trees And Cypresses From St.-Remy." Art Bulletin 75.4 (1993): 647. Academic Search Complete. Web. 27 Apr. 2014.
Pollock, Griselda. "Van Gogh And The Poor Slaves: Images Of Ritual Labour As Modern Art." Art History 11.3 (1988): 408-432.Academic Search Complete. Web. 27 Apr. 2014.
Soth, Lauren. "Van Gogh's Agony." Art Bulletin 68.2 (1986): 301. Academic Search Complete. Web. 27 Apr. 2014.
Zemel, Carol. "The 'Spook' In The Machine: Van Gogh's Pictures Of Weavers In Brabant." Art Bulletin 67.1 (1985): 123. Academic Search Complete. Web. 27 Apr. 2014. 

(I have added the photos of the art for easier viewing for my readers. Photos are from a Google search. Photos were not included in my graded essay.)

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Life Lately: Easter Weekend

Skirt/ T.J. Maxx; Leggings/Xhilration; Shoes/ Shoemint

As you all know, this past weekend was Easter weekend. It was also the weekend of the Soft Shell Crab Festival in Port Royal. We had my aunt and uncle and their three kids come in town because one of my cousins absolutely loves soft shell crab, and you can only get them fresh for a couple of weeks every year. Saturday we went down to the festival, which didn't have as much going on as usual because the weather was expected to be rainy. All we got while we were there was a light misting, though. I got to have my first soft shell crab of the year (I absolutely love them also) from the Sea Eagle Market kiosk. There was live music and craftseller booths also. I had heard that there was supposed to be red velvet funnel cake down at one of the kiosks (Hang on, let me wipe the drool from my mouth) but apparently that was false. Boo.
Easter day, we went to the beach for a while just to walk around and ate dinner at Dockside. I got the soft shell crab there, obviously. Theirs is the BEST.

Also... Ta-Da!!! We got a new baby kitten! He's only about 5 weeks old at the most, and absolutely adorable. I'm pretty sure that he has adopted me as his new mommy; he sleeps with me every night all curled up in my armpit or my hair or my neck. (Squealing internally.) We have yet to name him, but I really hope mom lets me choose, because I'm partial to the name Klaus. (See it's like a play on "Claws" but it's pronounced like "cloud" and it's German and adorable but also fitting for a full-grown cat.... I'll stop now.)

Poor quality on the photo but a LOVE these shoes!!!!

Reading: I just finished The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman, and now I'm starting on Northanger Abbey by Jane Austen. I'm hoping to make my way through all the big Austen novels this year as a part of my "52 New Books" goal. Also, I preordered the new Mortal Instruments book, and thanks to Amazon, it should be in my hands right on the release day without me ever having to leave the house. Score!

Watching: My newest obsessions are Orphan Black and Bates Motel. I am totally in love with the plot lines and characters of both and really wish there were more seasons. I need more of the clones and the weird Norman/Norma relationship, like, now.

Thinking About: Happiness. Like, true happiness and how to attain it for myself and not necessarily solely through the other people in my life. While I am grateful for the wonderful people in my life, I am beginning to realize that I need to find ways to really achieve happiness for myself on my own. I am considering trying some new things this summer that are a bit out of my comfort zone, but I won't say what because I don't know for sure if I'll be able to push myself that much.