Tuesday, July 29, 2014

In The Moment

As a teenager, a photographer, and just a sentimental person in general, it has always been important to me to  have pictures of my experiences. My philosophy has always been that the more photos I have, the better I will remember. Of course, there are the times when you can't capture photos because of rules or because you can't get your camera or phone out in time. Sometimes the memory simply can't be caught on film, like a smell or a texture. And sometimes it's best to forget about the pictures and truly dive into the experience at hand.

The other day, I was able to spend an evening with my friend Jackie. She and I were in choir together, and I hadn't seen her in a good while. We spent most of our time together on the docks and watched the sun set while talking about everything: our lives, school, relationships, really everything. Most of the time we spent talking was concerning faith. I have been increasingly interested and curious about trying to find my place in the Christian faith, but I haven't had the resources or the patience to really try until now. Since Jackie has always been very awe-inspiring and serene in her faith, I knew she would be the perfect person for me to talk to; and she was. She listened to my doubts and concerns, and she wasn't judgemental. She allowed me to pose the hypothetical questions that have been bouncing around my brain for years and even offered hypothetical solutions that weren't sarcastic and really helped me. 

As the sun was setting, there was a small pod of dolphins that were swimming around, and we could see their dorsal fins cresting. It was beautiful, and the breeze was blowing and the sunset was creating an unfathomable canvas of reds, oranges, pinks, yellows and blues in the sky and reflecting on the river as it lowered itself over the horizon. I didn't even think to bring my phone out to snap a picture, and in a way I'm glad I didn't. I was really in the moment, experiencing the beauty without a lens in between. I was enjoying how the light wind was swirling my hair around my face and how the water sounded so calm as it lapped against the bank and how truly accepted I felt in my journey towards finding my faith. 

I think it's high time everyone tries to do this, experience some things in life without feeling like you have to be snapping pictures for Instagram or live tweeting the entire ordeal (although Jackie and I being attacked by a giant cicada on the walk back to her house would have made for some pretty hilarious tweets!) The point is, technology is nice. It's convenient, fun, and (let's be honest here) addicting. However, it doesn't take that much effort to slip your iPhone back into your purse and get into an experience 100% organically. Blog about it later, make a Facebook status about it later, but really let go of the little magic metal boxes and actually experience the experiences you are bragging about. They're more fun that way.


Monday, July 28, 2014

Music Monday // Number 02

Today's selection: "Goes Without Saying" by Anchor & Braille

I was introduced to this band by my friend Josh and since then I have been absolutely in love with their music. Please enjoy!


Monday, July 21, 2014

Music Monday // Number 01

This is a new feature I would like to begin on the blog, where I share music I currently love/discover. I would love to be able to feature up-and-coming artists or even videos of open-mic night performers, so if you have any suggestions, please submit them in through the contact form on my blog's sidebar. Please enjoy this new segment as I share my love and passion for music with you, my lovely readers!

This week's selection: "Poison" by Jet Black Alley Cat


Thursday, July 17, 2014

The Queen City

My overnight trip to Charlotte wasn't as eventful as I had thought, but it was still fun nonetheless. I honestly think my favorite part of the trip was the ride to and from, with my headphones in and the scenery whirring past as we drove down the highway. I love just the thought and prospect of going places. 

We stayed with my mom's boyfriend's family, which was very nice. We went to SeaLife, which is a local rescue aquarium inside a mall. Yes, INSIDE the mall. This mall was absolutely gigantic. Words cannot describe. 

We ate dinner at Buffalo Wild Wings that night and spent the rest of our trip the next day shopping in the mall. I would have loved to get out and see some of the local spots in Charlotte, but that'll be for another trip. 

Peace out, Charlotte. Hope to see you again soon!


Wednesday, July 16, 2014

What Is Keeping You From Achieving Your Dreams Right Now?

Elizabeth over at Delightfully Tacky has challenged fellow bloggers to answer the following question: "What is keeping you from achieving your dreams right now?" I have decided to join in on this conversation.

It would be so easy for me to put the blame on anything but myself; I could blame my home life or the economy, my recent breakup or the loss of friendships. I could put the fault on any number of outside sources. But when it comes down to it, I am the one who is holding myself back.

I really noticed it the other day. I'm still very close friends with my ex, and I was laying on my bed talking to him when I looked over and saw the list of "19 Things To Do Before I Turn 20" taped to the side of my bookshelf. I put it there to remind myself that I had goals to reach, but this was really the first time I had looked at it in months. And to be honest, I was really sad to realized that I haven't done a single one of them... and I have less than 6 months left. 

Some of them are things that I know have to be done: getting my driver's license, getting my transfer to SCAD sent in and accepted, and so on. Really, it's my own procrastination and laziness and fear and insecurity that has held me back from many of these things. I have always felt something; this want, desire, need, to be accepted and admired and loved. I have the worst habit of comparing myself to others, and living in the age of Facebook, blogging, and Instagram, it's very easy for me to feel less than; less interesting, less lovable, less beautiful. I could have a wonderful experience going somewhere or create something beautiful, but my brain sees something of someone else's and I lose confidence in the things I feel or have done. And it's really sad, because I know that I have a lot to be proud of and a lot to share. 

My life choices are already different from most people my age anyway. While most people are drinking and smoking and experimenting with drugs and sleeping around and having the quintessential "college experience," I have no desire for any of those things. These are personal choices and by no means do I think I am better than anyone else for making them; but I also don't want to be around people who are going to be getting plastered or high and I don't want to be made to feel like a freak for not dating a different guy every weekend. Because of these choices, I know many of my friends leave me out of things and don't even bother to make plans with me even one-on-one, which is sad because it makes me feel like I'm not good enough. I know that I could overcome these feelings of social anxiety on my own, but in a way I wish someone would at least extend an offer or two to give me a hand.

I know that I am the one getting in my own way, and I know that a lot of the excuses I make are really only present and relevant in my head. After seeing that list with nothing on it completed, I know I have to make many changes, and I am already putting effort towards a few things that I know need to be done.


Thursday, June 26, 2014

Summer Portraits with Danny

It's been a busy (and WiFi free) past few weeks! There's a lot going on, including the planning of our weekend trip to Charlotte, NC this weekend and this portrait session with my friend Danny on Monday. I wanted to share my favorites from the shoot, but you can view the entire collection on my Facebook page.

I already have multiple more shoots planned tentatively for this summer, so I'll be posting more to my photography page all summer! And I'll share photos from Charlotte as soon as possible. 


Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Product Review: Gillette Venus Snap with Embrace

I recently received the Venus Snap voxbox complimentary from Influenster. At first, I was a little unsure of what the product was, but when I opened the package, I was pleasantly surprised. It's a little travel-sized razor with a little carrying compact! The handle is small and the razor is full sized, perfect for when you need to fix a missed spot #InASnap ! It is compatible with all Gillette Venus razors, but came with one of the 5-blade razor heads from the Embrace line. Already, I have used this razor out in public (I always think my shave is so perfect until I get out in town in shorts and see that my knees are like a patch of un-mowed lawn....) This razor is a perfect lifesaver. All you have to do is wet the blade, shave, and you're golden! This is going to be great for the summer traveling I hope to do!

9.5/10  Would DEFINITELY recommend!!


Friday, May 16, 2014

My First Portraiture Session: Autumn and Ting

On Sunday, I had my first ever portraiture session with my friends Autumn and Ting. We decided to go down to Hunting Island beach, and I am so happy with how the sitting went. I wanted to share a few of the pictures with everyone! The full series of pictures can be seen on the Whispered Wishes Photography Facebook page.

I love these two girls so much, and they were so much fun to take photos of. 


Wednesday, May 14, 2014

What I Wore: 2014 Invitational Croquet Tournament

Romper/ The Clothes Line; Crossbody bag/ Target; Belt/Urban Outfitters; Necklace/ gift
This past Saturday, I volunteered with my friend Autumn down at the 2014 Invitational Croquet Tournament on Brays Island. The tournament is a yearly event to benefit AMIkids Beaufort, the local branch of a national organization whose mission is to help kids who have gotten into some trouble build towards a better future. (Kind of like an alternative to juvy.) Through this live-in facility, students not only can earn their GEDs but also have the opportunity to learn skills to help them make a living, such as welding.

Autumn and I were at the registration tent, where we signed in and gave schedules to the teams as they arrived. It was a beautiful day outside, and there was a bunch of great food there, not to mention all of the amazing and fancily-clad people. We didn't play any croquet ourselves, but everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves. If I have to opportunity to volunteer again next year, I will definitely jump at the chance!


Monday, May 12, 2014

Candid Thoughts: On Importance

As I mentioned in a previous blog post, we recently adopted a new little kitten. We have finally chosen a name for him, Toby. He' about 7 weeks old by now, and he has absolutely captured my heart. He was still very young when we got him, so because I had him sleeping in my bed with me from the very first night, he's grown pretty attached to me. I think he sees me as "mommy." He always follows me around, looks for me when I leave the house, comes to me when he is hungry or scared, makes a point to curl up in my neck/chest area to fall asleep. And sometimes, when he isn't playful or when he is waking up from sleep, he just lays there, like he is in the picture above, and just stares at me. It isn't a "feed me" stare, or a "let's play" stare or even a "I need to use the litter box" stare. It's pure and perfect love. I'm only 19 and I've never been a mother, but if this is what it feels like, I am so excited for motherhood when my time comes.

The thing is, I've never felt so important. Even though there are other people living in the house, he looks to me 100% for his care. In his eyes, I am the most important person in the world. And that feels pretty damn good.

I got thinking about importance, and about how so many people, myself included, struggle with feeling like we are important. Many people don't believe that they have any value in the world because they don't believe that they are or can make a difference. Many believe that they have to please everyone to be considered important. And as I thought about this, it occurred to me that everyone who thinks like that needs to think again.

You see, there are 7 billion people in the world. Each person has their own set of ethics, beliefs, and personal values and opinions. Nobody is going to be able to please everyone in the world. Sorry Christians, but not even Jesus could do it. He was crucified, right? But Jesus is important to Christians. And just like that, every person is important. No, you don't have to be crucified for that to happen. 

Every decision we make is an important decision, whether it's as simple as turning left instead of right, or as complicated as deciding to start a family. Whether you realize it or not, there is always going to be someone who thinks you are the most important person in the world. Some people have millions who think this about them. Some have very few. Maybe some have only one. But to quote John Green's novel The Fault in our Stars, "Some infinities are bigger than other infinities." Someone looks up to you and thinks you are the most important person, and I promise you, you do not want to let them down. So if you are ever feeling unimportant, remember that someone is watching from afar, because you are the most important person to them.